Oh, hi. 

Do you know that I didn’t go to the uni I forever ago had been wanting to go? They say not getting what we wanted is sometimes a great blessing only seen later on. Guess I’ll just let time fly to make everything make perfect sense.

and uhm… let’s see. I’ve transformed into this person I’ve never thought I will be becoming.  It’s on the right track, don’t worry. 

But this change makes me feel like alienated. Though now I am used to the stares. Deep down I know this is what I am supposed to be doing but just recently I somehow found myself that I am not fully ready. I never have. And it’s no way I could just…….change. It will take a whole new world for me to start over.

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But for now, making amends for not making the most of my high school is the only thing I should concern about. I’ve finished my first semester and though I wasn’t really cramming for the finals, I really hope I’m getting straight As. 

and I’ve got my own goals too. Got a year to prepare. or a year and a half. I believe I have within me the capacity to manufacture the very quality I have been constantly chasing. 

Well, we all do:-)

Bye for now.

This is a real deal. Ngga akan bisa maju kalau cuma disini aja. 

Your permission, that’s all I need, Mom. I hope you’ll come around.